if complacency is the worst thing that can happen to a person
then i must be living the dream life
never a dull moment
never a steady week
i sometimes dont know how my heart could still be pumping after allowing itself to feel this much
or how my brain could possibly stand the circles i allow it to go in searching for something
i never thought at 25 i'd be even more confused about love and life than i was at 16
which doesn't give me much hope for the future
i realize that no relationship will ever be work free
that i will always hurt and struggle and give things up for someone else
i just want to know which guy is worth fighting for
how much fight is too much fight
why does giving someone up feel like the most incredible pain i could ever experience
and when will i stop having to experience that
when will i be done
when will i be happy
not just happy for one week
but that deep down happy, that even in the worst fight, never goes away
then i must be living the dream life
never a dull moment
never a steady week
i sometimes dont know how my heart could still be pumping after allowing itself to feel this much
or how my brain could possibly stand the circles i allow it to go in searching for something
i never thought at 25 i'd be even more confused about love and life than i was at 16
which doesn't give me much hope for the future
i realize that no relationship will ever be work free
that i will always hurt and struggle and give things up for someone else
i just want to know which guy is worth fighting for
how much fight is too much fight
why does giving someone up feel like the most incredible pain i could ever experience
and when will i stop having to experience that
when will i be done
when will i be happy
not just happy for one week
but that deep down happy, that even in the worst fight, never goes away
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